It’s December and to me that always feels like the time to think about how has this year been and what do I want to try to make happen next year. I really like to know where I’m aiming to go on New Year’s Eve, kind of like being at the start of a race or the top of a hill on a bike, ready to go.
So how was 2024? My main goals were to find good ways for us to interact with the wider world and go places were my main goals. And some of that happened and some of it didn’t. Life likes to have surprise challenges after all. We didn’t go as many fun places as I’d hoped (tiny children + immunocompromised state + health things to manage = a whole pile of hard to overcome each time) but we did go places. And we’ve done all the big family things I’d hoped. Not always in the ideal way but we made them happen.
And the kids had a lot of playing outside and reading books and just good kid stuff. And we didn’t drop family traditions, which definitely matters. So yay!
Next year’s goal, more swimming and working on our yard and more hiking.
One silver lining to things this year was that we ended up picking up projects and things I wouldn’t have thought we’d be able to do. There are 200 lb of tomatoes plus some pickles and things all successfully canned and hanging out in the basement. Which is awesome!
Next year’s goal is to take that and make it more, can the jam as we get the fruit, and can fruit and veggies directly. And double the tomato sauce, because really good tomato sauce on hand is the best. Also, canning isn’t at risk if we have a power outage, which is a big deal.
One thing I tried to do this year was add more of the world at large to what I think about and what I see and do. And….yeah….I only managed some of that, and honestly I don’t think it works exactly for me. The world is headed in other directions for awhile and there just isn’t enough contexts where someone like me can participate for that to be workable. It’s not like I want to give up on the world it’s just that I need to be ok, and I need my family to be ok and honestly I need to be functional.
The efforts of the Everything-is-Fine! crowd and the Everything-is-Doom! crowd and the efforts of big companies pushing both of the above just doesn’t work for me. So I’m going to look for online communities I can be a part of which works for the health stuff and the immunocompromised stuff. Hopefully some low key ones where there can be participation but at a level I can manage. This was a thing I did more as a teenager and in college, but parenting and working and health things don’t leave a lot of time. Also being an introvert applies to the Internet too. Got to be something out there though!
Some of the seeing the world was good though. Just have to find a way that works for me. I got to go to a couple of bookstores and an antique/thrift store. I want more of that (when workable) and more going outdoors, both here and hiking. Some of that is hard with kids, but hopefully we/I can add more of that next year. Part of the hard part is people are stressful (I mean, they’ve always been stressful on some level, but the fact that they could wreck my health or life at any moment really takes that stress up to 11…) but I’m sure I can find places to go and ways to do it that work.
And I think for my projects, yarn, books and things like that my new challenge will be finding ways to get the things I want from places that exist here. I think that will help with focusing on my community here and make sure if I’m getting things it’s things I really want and need which is important for environmental and sanity reasons. If I can source a very high percentage of my food from here I should be able to do something similar for fun stuff. 🙂 This is probably made easier by the fact that “fun things” are books, yarn, fabric, garden seeds and plants, puzzles, board games and the occasional video game. So seeds, plants and wool textiles are definitely available here and made here! There’s a local bookstore and game store and puzzles are certainly around a bunch of places so that covers a lot of ground. Fabric is harder, especially since I want fabric for clothing, that’s probably going to involve going online. There are fabric stores here but they’re really mostly for quilting. And I like quilting, but clothing is my favorite.
The other thing I want is to focus on here as in what’s around me and what I’m doing here. Which at the moment means my home and the space directly around me. I have lots of projects and a big yard to turn into gardens and happy spaces to be. And I have food to make and books to read and skills to learn to make and do more things. And movies to watch and games to play and kids and cats to hug. And really, the world at large is constantly trying to push it’s way to the center of my attention and really I don’t want that. The Internet or the world or companies or ads or whatever always seems to want more attention and more focus and worry and thought (and presumably more money as a result of that) but it eats up so much there’s nothing left for what I want especially after work, parenting, health stuff, paperwork, chores and the rest. So I want to turn off the distractions and just be me for a bit. Hopefully get to read books I like and make things and focus on here.
I’m not going to hide from the world and the terrible things that are out there. I have a couple of reliable news sources that update 1x per day to read and there’s public radio to listen to and magazines to read which are great sources of information (yay science! and textiles! and history! and gardens!) But it doesn’t need to take over everything I think about because I have people to take care of and things I need and want to do. And there’s a lot more happiness and fulfillment from that!